Waeconconka

Well my life has about fallen apart, but i think it might be a good thing. Me and Sanu are several thousand dollars in debt and I havent slept well in the last few weeks, Last night Sanu emailed my mother to tell he everything, and I thank her for it, but that might mean me and rachael separating for a while, WE ae still in love and I will go see her every chance i get, but I will most likely withdrawl from college for a semester and move in with my dad while rachael goes back to Ohio and live with her grandparents, and we try living together again next fall. I really hate being apart from her and Wish I hadnt made all the mistakes I made s

I know I am an Alpha, and a lot of people look to me for help, and I am required as such to help those who come to me, but lately almost every time i am contacted it is for either money, time, or advice, and i am pretty much out of all of that, and a lot of the time it is for advice on nothing. Any time i am asked how I am doing it is followed by "i have a problem" Everyone needs to learn to deal with problems on your own, not everything is a crisis, and stress is a part of life Learn to deal with it, I cant take care of stress for you, and i have delt with it, i am dealing with it, I have almost $6500 in credit card debt, not money, Bills i

OK, time for one of those "Spill your guts" Journal, But I have to say this Today is mine and WolfessSanu's 10 month anniversary, We have been engaged for over a month. We have seen our hard times and our bad, but together we have pulled through together, Well to say it out right I would not have made it without her, I am who I am because of her......She saved me. There is not a way, no words that can tell how I feel about her, she is perfect...she is beautiful....I love her. I was born the day she loved me, I cannot remember a time when she was not in my life, when i did not have her with me. If there was a time like that, I don't want to